Hey guys. It’s been a while since I shared some music with you. In the last couple of months, I’ve been making a new website in preparation for the new songs that I’m about to launch. Besides new tracks, there are going to be loads of new blogs, videos and other cool content on the site which I’m SO excited to share with you. I feel like I’m coming out of the dark, becoming visible again. So I though it would be relevant to share this older track with you, called Invisible Ones, which I’ve made this lyric video for. I wrote this track for my Season of Plums EP in 2010, when I was feeling the presence of an invisible force inside of me, driving me to repeat painful patterns. I’ve since figured out that we can hide behind our pain/wounds or patterns sometimes. We don’t know we’re doing it, and we all have our own unique way to escape ourselves.
For me, I became invisible when I’d hide behind relationships as I was afraid of life and wanted to be ‘rescued’. When I wrote this song, I had no clue that the need for a ‘rescuer’ would only ever attract emotionally unavailable partners to me. I hadn’t yet understood that there would never be a ‘saviour’ outside of learning to love myself. Or if someone real and loving would try to get inside my walls, I’d push them away every time. Like any other addiction it was a kind of insanity, when you keep making the same choices and expecting different results – inevitably your safety or comfort zone becomes the old familiar pain, a vicious cycle you’re too scared to step out of. But thankfully I can say that I’ve found my way out of that cycle, and back to my inner peace.
I still want to share this video though, as I know some of you might relate to it. If it resonates with you, and you’d like to connect, please leave a comment, I’d love to hear from you.